my last blog is bullshit. who the fuck tells me that i'm deluded, not you for sure. you and your perfect little life. i don't think so. you can't even touch me anymore, i don't want you in my life, i'm much happier without you.
and on top of you being a wanker, my whole life is falling apart.
oh, life is great right now.
/sarcasm.
i need three things to keep me going right now. wait, make that four.
#1 music. #2 friends. #3 the internet. #4 drawing supplies.
i haven't drawn this much in ages. art is spilling out right now. it's not even natural.
i guess i'll update again soon.
bye, rose.
Monday, 26 October 2009
Tuesday, 13 October 2009
& i could really go for a cup of coffee and an overdose...
today is shit, yesterday was shit. i feel like my life is wasting away before my fucking eyes. it sucks. the only things i can do right now without wanting to kill someone is listen to music and draw shitty pictures. i've got nothing to look forward to. i'm selling my gig tickets. the money is needed elsewhere. i thought i'd see one of my best friends and my favourite band this year, but i'm not gonna. i haven't told her yet, maybe i can find a way to go in the end. i don't know.
i've got nothing to look forward to, nothing to keep me going to the end of the year. oh, apart from visiting charlie, that'll be a breath of fresh air, to have fun yah know. we're gonna dress up, take photos. then i'm going to see la roux again, taking jodie. that'll be okay. but other than that, nothing. and i know i'm ungreatful cause some people have less. but i feel like it's my turn to be happy you know, i was just starting to feel happy again and it's been pulled from under me again. it's bullshit, i've had my turn. i don't want to do it again.
fuck why am i even writing this. i don't even know.
"a twisted up frown
disguised as a smile, well
you would’ve never known"
i've got nothing to look forward to, nothing to keep me going to the end of the year. oh, apart from visiting charlie, that'll be a breath of fresh air, to have fun yah know. we're gonna dress up, take photos. then i'm going to see la roux again, taking jodie. that'll be okay. but other than that, nothing. and i know i'm ungreatful cause some people have less. but i feel like it's my turn to be happy you know, i was just starting to feel happy again and it's been pulled from under me again. it's bullshit, i've had my turn. i don't want to do it again.
fuck why am i even writing this. i don't even know.
"a twisted up frown
disguised as a smile, well
you would’ve never known"
Tuesday, 6 October 2009
Monday, 5 October 2009
but you're already all of these things...
this girl here, i've known her around two years now. we met on bebo. she messaged me because she was going to see My Chemical Romance at Sheffield Arena, I was going too. We talked over bebo for a while, and myspace, letting each other know when the tickets had arrived etc. we began talking over msn, about how amazing My Chem were. I guess you could call it fangirling ;D
We both love them, we owed them so much, they helped us both through hard times and i have to admit, they still do. We planned to meet at the gig, but that fell though as we we're going through different doors. After that date, which was IMMENSE, we carried on talking, she was my best friend. i'd never had a friend like her, ever. we planned so many times to meet up, it always fell through. We grew out of My Chemical Romance and moved onto other bands and obsessed over other things, we suggested music/books to each other. Twilight was and is a big thing for us. Especially as we finally met up on the day the movie was released,
Jayde came to scunthorpe and watched it with me and my friend Sydelle. it was amazing, not just the movie, to actually meet someone who's constantly been there for you for over a year, it was so surreal, from talking over msn to standing face to face. it was probably one of the most nerve-racking, amazingly awesome days of my entire life. it was that amazingly nerve-racking we didn't get any pictures together... i'd known her a year and still no picture together. so yeah, the second time we met, i went to grimsby to meet her and Steph. we had a starbucks and went shopping aaaand... finally got pictures!! she also bought me roses as it was close to valentines day, one was the colour of Hayley Williams' hair, i still have them in my room, along with my cinema ticket for twilight. 
third time i met her, SLAM DUNK FESTIVAL. the day before my birthday aka 23rd May 2009, Crimson and I travelled to Leeds to meet up with Jayde, Sofie and Raychel, who were already there. we camped in a 2 man tent, there was five of us. the next day it was my birthday and the best day of my life so far, there's no one i'd have rather spent that day with. we met gabe saporta, nate novarro, sean smith and josh fransexi together. i think the most memorable ones are gabe and josh though, jayde told gabe it was my birthday, i am forever thankful, he is the cutest man ever... not ever, sorry, ryland is. but the second cutest man ever. and josh, well jayde practically DIED in the presence of Josh, she was all ready to eat him. "he smelt delicious!" there, from Jayde's uh... fingers? (she typed it)anyway, to wrap this up. Jayde is the most amazing friend i've ever had, she's been there for me through pretty much everything, she's my penpal, my gerard and my alice all in one. i really do not know what i'd do without her. i hate when we don't talk for a few weeks at a time, but it makes it even awesome-er when we talk again. i'm glad i have someone to fangirl over rpattz/twilight/paramore with, otherwise i'd have to bottle it all up and that would be incredibly bad for my health.
seriously, there is no one like you, i love you!
one more picture, 'cause it's fucking weird.
i have no idea what i am doing, but jayde is looking at my like "wtf."awesome.
rose <3
& i know you don't...
so i haven't posted in over a month!
maybe because nothing interesting has really happened... i'm gonna make a vow to myself to update this more. seriously, i promise i will update it like at least once a week.
not that anyone really cares but yah know!
rose <3
here's a crappy picture from my phone of katy perry for you!
Monday, 31 August 2009
& i will wait for you, as long as i need to...
so the last time i blogged properly was 22nd august, it's now the 1st september, that's a week and two days since i posted. okay, so starting from where that blog left off... the next day i went to bridlington, i believe that is what it's called, and also north landing, took a lot of pictures at north landing, we climbed right out near the sea, on these rocks, it was so pretty. seriously. got some good photo's, i might post one of two in a second.
we went for chippies at bridlington, a walk on the beach and into the arcades also. then went home, and SLEPT, i was so tired.
for pretty much the rest of the week, nothing happened. then last tuesday, gabanti and I went to Birmingham for the day, to see Katy Perry. I've been a fan of Katy since summer '07, since before I Kissed A Girl, before she got famous, this however, is the first time i saw her live. I have to say, after the experience, i'm disappointed i didn't see her earlier. So yeah, the day went like this...
6:30 am; I wake up, start getting ready.
7:30 am; we set off for birmingham. listening to radio one is highly amusing at that time in the morning.
by 9:30/10am, we were in birmingham, we got a bit lost but managed to find our way to the venue. we parked up and set off to find gabanti, she was in starbucks but we saw her whilst walking into the town centre. we got her bags and took them to our car, then went back to starbucks for some much needed hot chocolate. gabanti took tons of creeper pictures throughout the day, she has a lot of me drinking the hot chocolate.
we took our drinks back to the queue outside the 02 academy, there was already quite a few people there, but not loads. i'd say about 15/20 max. so we sat down, and the wait began. a lot of people pushed in, i was so mad seriously. the time seemed to drag reaaally bad, but then this guy provided entertainment for us when he went all crazy on one of
the security people from the venue. the police turned up in the end to escort him away.
we had a macdonalds, had several walks up and down the incredibly long queue, made friends with some of the KatyCats, Dani especially, she was nice. a lot of them made signs and stuff for Katy, the girls behind us in the queue had a strawberry sign and a cupcake sign, they were amazing! Jess, another girl, she was pretty much at the front of the queue, made a huge cherry chapstick, Dani made a t-shirt with a kitty drawn on the back! sooo many creative people. also a suprising amount of people had travelled from different countries to go to the show, there were people from germany, people from france, i met one of the french katycats after the show and she was lovely!
anyway, when it was finally time to go in, we managed to gain a bit further forward in the queue, and ended up on the right hand side barrier. sliimy came on stage about 8 ish i think, or 8:30. he was sooo cute! seriously, his outfit, his hair, his dancing, his voice! you should definately check him out. at around 9, katy came on stage. she looked amazing, she sounded amazing. i can quite honestly say that that was one of the best live shows i have been to. her voice, is incredible. she wore this red dress with black polka dots, and a union jack crop top over it. so cute.
the show seemed to fly past, it felt like it was over in minutes.
after the show we headed outside, met up with Dani, Clare and i think the other girls name was Lydia. three katycats. we sat around waiting for the meet and greet people to come out and tell us if Katy would be coming out.
They finally came out of the venue, and we stook around to hear their stories and wait a little longer for Katy. then the people crowding round the shutters starting screaming her name, and the shutters opened, a white car drove out and the fans sta
rted mobbing it basically. then the door flung open, i actually thought one of the fans had done it. but it was Katy, she had the hugest grin on her face, and she just started signing things and taking pictures. i managed to get two tickets signed and the CD booklet for Adie, i also got a picture with her.
seriously, one of the nicest and prettiest people i've ever met, she's even prettier in person than in photo's. it feels almost unreal, like a dream just talking about it. never thought i'd get the chance to meet her.
after the show, gabanti came home with me, she stayed at mine for a two days, but then she got ill and had to go home early. which sucked majorly.
apart from the whole Katy fiasco, the new Paramore song got leaked, Brick By Boring Brick. It's amazing, seriously. I've never felt as proud of a band as i have with them. i feel like a "soccer-mom". So, so proud. the song itself is beautiful, the range in Hayley's voice, the guitars, the beat. gives me chills. i'm now waiting patiently for the rest of the album, Brand New Eyes couldn't come soon enough.
in a week, i'll be in london. fingers crossed, i'll have a wristband for the Paramore signing and i'll be able to meet another five of my idols.
i feel blessed right now, incredibly lucky. everything is coming together for me, it feels amazing.
anyway, it's 2:15, i'm going to add photo's to this blog, then hit the sack. i had a late one last night, stayed up to see the stream of Katy's show in Hollywood. which was amazing by the way. Hackensack is amazing, especially covered by Katy!
goodnight!
walways, rose.
we went for chippies at bridlington, a walk on the beach and into the arcades also. then went home, and SLEPT, i was so tired.
for pretty much the rest of the week, nothing happened. then last tuesday, gabanti and I went to Birmingham for the day, to see Katy Perry. I've been a fan of Katy since summer '07, since before I Kissed A Girl, before she got famous, this however, is the first time i saw her live. I have to say, after the experience, i'm disappointed i didn't see her earlier. So yeah, the day went like this...
6:30 am; I wake up, start getting ready.
7:30 am; we set off for birmingham. listening to radio one is highly amusing at that time in the morning.
by 9:30/10am, we were in birmingham, we got a bit lost but managed to find our way to the venue. we parked up and set off to find gabanti, she was in starbucks but we saw her whilst walking into the town centre. we got her bags and took them to our car, then went back to starbucks for some much needed hot chocolate. gabanti took tons of creeper pictures throughout the day, she has a lot of me drinking the hot chocolate.
we took our drinks back to the queue outside the 02 academy, there was already quite a few people there, but not loads. i'd say about 15/20 max. so we sat down, and the wait began. a lot of people pushed in, i was so mad seriously. the time seemed to drag reaaally bad, but then this guy provided entertainment for us when he went all crazy on one of
the security people from the venue. the police turned up in the end to escort him away.we had a macdonalds, had several walks up and down the incredibly long queue, made friends with some of the KatyCats, Dani especially, she was nice. a lot of them made signs and stuff for Katy, the girls behind us in the queue had a strawberry sign and a cupcake sign, they were amazing! Jess, another girl, she was pretty much at the front of the queue, made a huge cherry chapstick, Dani made a t-shirt with a kitty drawn on the back! sooo many creative people. also a suprising amount of people had travelled from different countries to go to the show, there were people from germany, people from france, i met one of the french katycats after the show and she was lovely!
anyway, when it was finally time to go in, we managed to gain a bit further forward in the queue, and ended up on the right hand side barrier. sliimy came on stage about 8 ish i think, or 8:30. he was sooo cute! seriously, his outfit, his hair, his dancing, his voice! you should definately check him out. at around 9, katy came on stage. she looked amazing, she sounded amazing. i can quite honestly say that that was one of the best live shows i have been to. her voice, is incredible. she wore this red dress with black polka dots, and a union jack crop top over it. so cute.
the show seemed to fly past, it felt like it was over in minutes.
after the show we headed outside, met up with Dani, Clare and i think the other girls name was Lydia. three katycats. we sat around waiting for the meet and greet people to come out and tell us if Katy would be coming out.
They finally came out of the venue, and we stook around to hear their stories and wait a little longer for Katy. then the people crowding round the shutters starting screaming her name, and the shutters opened, a white car drove out and the fans sta
rted mobbing it basically. then the door flung open, i actually thought one of the fans had done it. but it was Katy, she had the hugest grin on her face, and she just started signing things and taking pictures. i managed to get two tickets signed and the CD booklet for Adie, i also got a picture with her.seriously, one of the nicest and prettiest people i've ever met, she's even prettier in person than in photo's. it feels almost unreal, like a dream just talking about it. never thought i'd get the chance to meet her.
after the show, gabanti came home with me, she stayed at mine for a two days, but then she got ill and had to go home early. which sucked majorly.
apart from the whole Katy fiasco, the new Paramore song got leaked, Brick By Boring Brick. It's amazing, seriously. I've never felt as proud of a band as i have with them. i feel like a "soccer-mom". So, so proud. the song itself is beautiful, the range in Hayley's voice, the guitars, the beat. gives me chills. i'm now waiting patiently for the rest of the album, Brand New Eyes couldn't come soon enough.
in a week, i'll be in london. fingers crossed, i'll have a wristband for the Paramore signing and i'll be able to meet another five of my idols.
i feel blessed right now, incredibly lucky. everything is coming together for me, it feels amazing.
anyway, it's 2:15, i'm going to add photo's to this blog, then hit the sack. i had a late one last night, stayed up to see the stream of Katy's show in Hollywood. which was amazing by the way. Hackensack is amazing, especially covered by Katy!
goodnight!
walways, rose.
Saturday, 29 August 2009
you make me happy, when skies are grey...
so i didn't have time last night for the epic-mahoosive-blog. so i'll be working on it tonight :D
working on resizing the tons of pictures that will be featured!
back soon.
love walways,
rose.
#edit; i'm too tired to complete tonight, i'll have everything ready for tomorrow night though!
<3
working on resizing the tons of pictures that will be featured!
back soon.
love walways,
rose.
#edit; i'm too tired to complete tonight, i'll have everything ready for tomorrow night though!
<3
Friday, 28 August 2009
no title;D
i will be posting an epic blog later tonight, as many things have happened since i last updated.
yeah, epic things. Katy Perry is a god.
love walways;
rose, xo.
yeah, epic things. Katy Perry is a god.
love walways;
rose, xo.
Saturday, 22 August 2009
i'm still breathing, but we've been dead for a while
hello!
i'm not sure how to start blogs, it's always sort of an awkward start you know?
sometimes you think of a decent way to start, then after a while you realise it's not that awesome after all... this happens with a lot of things to be honest.
i've just been looking through some photographs i took a few days ago in my back garden, and thinking about how in a few days time i'll probably look at them again and think they're pretty darn rubbish. for now though, for now i think they're okay.
i like the contrast of the colours, the red and the green together.
maybe in a day or two, the colour scheme won't matter to me anymore, like so many other things i'll be bored of it and want to erase it from my life. you're probably thinking, what are you talking about, it's a photograph... but perhaps i'm using it as a metaphor, in fact, i am.
everything i've ever wanted/loved/adored or even felt proud of in my life has been tarnished by something and i've no longer felt that way. whether it's a person, an object or something i've achieved. that person drifts away, they do something that scars you pretty much forever, most people don't forget situations like that. an object, it might have been ruined, or perhaps gotten old and discarded. or an achievement, maybe that gets overshadowed when someone does it better, or achieves more than you. then it means nothing.
i don't even know what i'm talking about sometimes, but that feels incredibly true, everything i wrote. it's true and i do feel that way, like things are changing so fast around me, it's strange how fast time goes you know...
today is a year since i met four of my idols, since i met my best friend, and other people that would make things that have happened since that have effected my life greatly, happen. i'll forever be greatful for that day, especially considering it would never have happened without the genorosity of some people, i didn't win a ticket. i got in on someone's spare. i still had the most amazing time.
in the strangest way, i'm happy right now, but also deep down i'm kind of sad... all i've got is music. i don't hang out much with people from my town, i only like about 6/7 people from my town, the rest of my friends are from gigs. that's kind of sad, but not in the same breath... confusing.
anyway, tomorrow i am going out with some family, getting up at six am, it's now 12:38am and i haven't sorted anything out, disastrous!
i shall be taking monroe with me, monroe is my camera, & taking hundreds of photographs.
i must leave you now, i shall blog again either when i get back, or on monday. next wednesday will be full of awesome-ness, i shall have my gabanti with me, and we'll have seen katy perry!
good night!
~ rose. xo
i'm not sure how to start blogs, it's always sort of an awkward start you know?
sometimes you think of a decent way to start, then after a while you realise it's not that awesome after all... this happens with a lot of things to be honest.
i've just been looking through some photographs i took a few days ago in my back garden, and thinking about how in a few days time i'll probably look at them again and think they're pretty darn rubbish. for now though, for now i think they're okay.
i like the contrast of the colours, the red and the green together.maybe in a day or two, the colour scheme won't matter to me anymore, like so many other things i'll be bored of it and want to erase it from my life. you're probably thinking, what are you talking about, it's a photograph... but perhaps i'm using it as a metaphor, in fact, i am.
everything i've ever wanted/loved/adored or even felt proud of in my life has been tarnished by something and i've no longer felt that way. whether it's a person, an object or something i've achieved. that person drifts away, they do something that scars you pretty much forever, most people don't forget situations like that. an object, it might have been ruined, or perhaps gotten old and discarded. or an achievement, maybe that gets overshadowed when someone does it better, or achieves more than you. then it means nothing.
i don't even know what i'm talking about sometimes, but that feels incredibly true, everything i wrote. it's true and i do feel that way, like things are changing so fast around me, it's strange how fast time goes you know...
today is a year since i met four of my idols, since i met my best friend, and other people that would make things that have happened since that have effected my life greatly, happen. i'll forever be greatful for that day, especially considering it would never have happened without the genorosity of some people, i didn't win a ticket. i got in on someone's spare. i still had the most amazing time.
in the strangest way, i'm happy right now, but also deep down i'm kind of sad... all i've got is music. i don't hang out much with people from my town, i only like about 6/7 people from my town, the rest of my friends are from gigs. that's kind of sad, but not in the same breath... confusing.
anyway, tomorrow i am going out with some family, getting up at six am, it's now 12:38am and i haven't sorted anything out, disastrous!
i shall be taking monroe with me, monroe is my camera, & taking hundreds of photographs.
i must leave you now, i shall blog again either when i get back, or on monday. next wednesday will be full of awesome-ness, i shall have my gabanti with me, and we'll have seen katy perry!
good night!
~ rose. xo
screaming, hallelujah...
this is my first blog, captain obvious.
i own a tumblr blog, but i don't blog on it, i post picspams and quite frankly... it's getting boring. so blogspot will be the home of my more serious blog, where i shall post anything i am feeling or thinking, also as i take new photographs and when i travel i will post about it here. i'm quite looking forward to documenting everything finally, should be fun!
anyway, keep a look out if you're interested. if not, i'll have fun talking to myself!
~ rose. xo
i own a tumblr blog, but i don't blog on it, i post picspams and quite frankly... it's getting boring. so blogspot will be the home of my more serious blog, where i shall post anything i am feeling or thinking, also as i take new photographs and when i travel i will post about it here. i'm quite looking forward to documenting everything finally, should be fun!
anyway, keep a look out if you're interested. if not, i'll have fun talking to myself!
~ rose. xo
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